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Glad to have you back!

What episode was with the garden ladies? I’m too lazy to sift back through the episode, but I will if I have to. Also what was the episode w the guy who lost his daughter?

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My English teacher told me that birth is the first day we begin dying. Constantly, each and every one of our cells are dying as they create new cells—like waves pushing and pulling, mouths inhaling and exhaling…and so too does our personality, wants, desires, and beliefs die to create new ones. Dying is change, and death is the final metamorphosis.

We’re all dying. And just as your father’s death was the end of his dying, so was your friend’s. And now you’ve got one less person to experience this dying life with. And his death, perhaps, brings the realization that the chapter of your life that intertwined with his is over—and it’s been over since the last time you saw him. That’s a really fucking shitty feeling. I feel it quite often when I think of my buddy Danny who I stopped talking to as much after he moved out…then he killed himself. You can’t get that time back. And it suck’s. It really sucks. I wish I just said yes that one time and went hunting with him. Just that one time.

But at the same time, we only dwell on these things when people die. Nowadays, our society is so void of feeling that only death can bring us to these kinds of realizations…only death can let us enjoy the life we have and the people we love. So, while I know I can’t make you feel better, I also don’t think I or anyone else SHOULD make you feel better. Loss is a gift from God to remind us that we and others we love are still alive.

We’re still dying but we ain’t dead yet. I hope you find peace soon and continue being the great man for whom I respect very much. Thank you for everything you do.

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Man I lost my father a few years ago and was in the verge of losing my daughter a year ago. While grieving is something that feels less of a burden with time, it has a phase that grows in a snowball effect, picking up every anxiety and fear along the way, and adding up bad ideas to its inventory. It is hard. My condolences for your loss, and happy birthday to you mother. Condolences and congratulations are two things that don't come together often so know that I say them with the best of my intentions.

Love your perspective of seasonal movement (physical activity). That is something that I've been thinking about of for years. Diets never made sense, just like the general concept of working out. Always the same. Seasonal movement pairs well with seasonal eating and cooking. It is more adaptive way to health, general fitness, physical literacy, and even learning; without the burden of shame, fear, goals, and body standards.

Saludos,

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Hope your mom had a wonderful birthday 🎂 All the best people were born in October 😁

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Oct 8Liked by Chris Ryan

Hey Chris. I am so sorry for your loss. It really fucking sucks that you lost your friend. Your friend Justin is right, there are no words that will ever suffice. I wanted to thank you for letting us into your world and sharing your spectrum of emotions, be they happy or sad. I think your honesty is one of the things I enjoy most about TS. There aren’t a lot of men who would have put out a podcast for the world to hear, that so openly shared their grieving, like you have with the latest ROMA. I hope in some way it helps in your grieving process. Wishing you and Anya a speedy recovery from Covid.

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Oct 7Liked by Chris Ryan

Life is short. Enjoy the days with those you love. Hope everyone is healing up well and have fun at the “You’re going to Die one day” party. Sending love from Portland.

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Hello love Chris I really miss someone like you long time am gonna meet you one day I love your voice note babe

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Hey Chris, I've been out of touch of late so this is the first I've heard of your loss. Sending you my love and condolences. It's been almost a year since we lost my wife's mum, whom we loved very much and was a big part of our and our children's lives. It's only now that I am starting to see my wife smile more often which is the light at the end of the tunnel of darkness which has been the past year. The book 'The Wild Edge of Sorrow: Rituals of Renewal and the Sacred Work of Grief' by Francis Weller has helped me a great deal.

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Oct 6Liked by Chris Ryan

It's hard every time we remember them. These moments make us remember more of those who are alive. God bless us! Only good thoughts from Bucharest, Romania.

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Oct 6Liked by Chris Ryan

Emotional glory hole - I'm still giggling. Good one Chris. Thank you for sharing your pain and allowing us to support you.

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Crestone California? Hang in there. Glad you’re back.

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Did I say that? Brain fog like San Francisco in August.

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Came here for this. 🙂

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